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Drive
03:03
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When we were younger / I promised you the world / and as we grew / I found myself carrying just that upon my back / and I kept thinking I would crack / but you, you are / so intelligent and lovely / and I would still / give you anything, anything you want / I’ll build it in-between our palms / with my own blood / my own sweat / my own love and death / everything I am, as little as it is belongs to you / just as it always did and as you lay me down / upon the bed / it smells of roses / my time with you / means more than everything / your smile / your eyes / the way you softly sing to me and I / was only wanting you to stay for the rest of our lives / all the midnight talks and silly things / we laughed about for seasons / breathing nothing but the love you never felt for me / and now I hear the ambulances distant in the night time / I feel nothing but you next to me / the warmth of fire aside / and broken glass sounds just like chimes / my glossy eyes see just your silhouette / and I know that everything will be ok / you’ve always been my greatest friend / and even though I’m on my way / I hope you know my heart will never change / everything I am / as little as it is belongs to you / just as it always did / and as you lay me down / upon the bed / it smells of roses
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Reprieve
03:33
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Father I have a confession to make / I’ve never confessed for fear of losing faith / in something I’ve never believed in / my prayers go unanswered for the third time this week and if he’s really there / staring down from above at us / then why is it so hard to sleep / to know that there’s someone who cares / I can’t take this pause in the cycle / I’m screaming out / oh my God well someone please help / show me the light in this / I am going through hell again / oh my God well / is this downhill / one minute more to speak from my chest / I’m burning for a moment before I am laid down to rest / I guess to confess is a regular thing / but a grasp on the concept I seem to be lacking / so let’s have a toast to the burn on the back of my throat / that makes all of this a bit easier / not for me, but for you / I’m not who they thought they once knew / tying ropes up to trees thinking that was the answer to everything / now I know that it’s not but a word’s all you need to get out of the dark / when you’re sinking and sinking and drowning / and screaming out / oh my God well / someone please help show me a light in this / I am going through hell, again / oh my God well is this downhill / one minute more to speak from my chest / I’m burning for a moment before I am laid down to rest / I am resting / or trying to anyway / wake, I am waking / from nightmares about my days drunk / I’ve been drinking / and I don’t believe anything said / I’m not speaking / I’m at the end and my life line’s been cut / and the passed three years have been nothing but questions / about love , about God, about life /I just need a moment before I give up / just one breath of air / before I give in to the things my reflection might say from my mirror about why I exist and why I’m still here / I’m screaming out / oh my God well / someone please help / show me a light in this / I am going through hell, again / oh my God well is this down hill / one minute more to speak from my chest / I’m burning for a moment before I am laid down to rest
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Interlude
01:44
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Stag
04:00
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Lying awake under pictures / I see in my mind I am trying so hard just to breathe / and start to heal / everything’s spiraling out of control / the blood rush is hot / and my heart’s growing colder this year / hasn’t been the best for me / what I once thought / was the light at the end of the tunnel / in the headlights of an oncoming car / I watched everything fall apart / in the headlights of an oncoming car / I watched everything fall apart / memorized patterns and whispers / trees line the sides of my mind / and the colors are vibrant / and death’s so enticing / I feel like I’m falling down fists first / holding me close in a gentle embrace / I would strike then / on the face of this giant / and my life then / flashes before my eyes / like a silent film / and the text slides are all full of lies / in the headlights of an oncoming car/ I watched everything fall apart / in the headlights of an oncoming car I watched everything / in the head lights of an oncoming car / I watched everything fall apart / and my mind strung / like a broken guitar / with my silver tongue / won’t get me very far / and I’ve tried so hard for this / all of it / and now I’m falling / I’m falling apart / in the headlights of an oncoming car / I watched everything fall apart / fall apart / and though I tried so goddamn hard / I watched everything / in the headlights / in the headlights / in the headlights / in the head lights / in the headlights of an oncoming car I watched everything fall apart
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Claustrophobia
04:52
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The walls keep inching closer / towards my lonely self / because in a room that’s always shrinking / there isn’t room for anyone else / shaking in my fingertips / begins crawling towards my chest / and it still won’t be enough / if I try my very best / there’s nothing I can do / to keep from being crushed / under the weight of the walls / that i’ve built from a broken trust / on the floor with my face in my knees screaming please / can you save me from myself / cause isn’t claustrophobia / supposed to come from something else / all the lies that I tell to myself / they don’t help when the walls start closing in / and all this claustrophobia / won’t stop until it destroys me / I don’t need a room to make me claustrophobic / just time alone here with my thoughts / I’ll find myself trapped within / the things I once forgot / everything cast out of my mind / tries to force its way back in / when I’m fighting the things that have beat me before / there’s no way I can win / walls I built to protect myself / come crumbling down on me / and I’m stoned on the ground / by these thoughts they won’t stop / ’til I’m trapped underneath / on the floor with my face in my knees / screaming please can you save me from myself / cause isn’t claustrophobia supposed to come from something else / all the lies that I tell to myself / they don’t help when the walls start closing in / and all this claustrophobia won’t stop until it destroys me / on the floor with my face in my knees / screaming please / cause isn’t claustrophobia supposed to come from something else / all the lies that I tell to myself they don’t help / and all this claustrophobia / won’t stop until it destroys me
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No Refunds
02:58
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Today I watched my cousin cry / a boy he knew today had died / resting at the ocean floor / they found him there / today I had a sudden thought / life is short / and I had forgot / I hugged my friends / and I called my mother / and I pondered in the face of death / would I stand and cry / like a deer caught in the headlights / would I stand there frozen / afraid for those / He had not chosen / today I caught up on the news / and saw just how this world concludes / it’s not so violent as once might think / it’s innocence that sends us off to sleep / today my mind was overcome / with choices made / and lovers gone / and I had to think / what would I do / if I ever lost / anyone of whom / I call my family / I’d be terrified of not saying goodbye / before all of the endings / had happened right there in my eyes / today I realized / something new I never had known / when I talk I don’t really speak / I don’t say what I really mean / today I thought / if my last words / to anyone / who might have heard / were vicious well / what kind of man / could I call myself then / today I watched my cousin cry / a boy he knew / today had died / and I only thought / of what it means / to be family / in the thick of things.
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